Archive for May 16th, 2011

Washed out

A couple of weeks ago I was reading a blog and the blogger was discussing a passage that I really liked and wanted to memorize. I jotted it down and put it in the kitchen because that is really where we spend lots of our time.  I made a point of reading it when I was cooking dinner or cleaning up the dishes. It slowly became less coherent but in the beginning it was still readable with the water drops. Until one day I looked over for the verse and this is what I found.

The passage was  Psalm 92:1-2

It is good to give thanks to the Lord,
to sing praises to your name, O Most High;
2 to declare your steadfast love in the morning,
and your faithfulness by night.

I first read it on Emily Freeman’s blog….here is the post if you are interested. She hashed it out in a series a few weeks ago. Enjoy. I love how she goes through “steadfast love in the morning” and “faithfulness at night”. I can especially relate to the need to declare God’s faithfulness at night. After long days in this season of motherhood with toddlers I need to be reminded that God is faithful to me and will equip me for another day.

Back to my washed out, mangled paper. I feel like sometimes this is an accurate view of my spiritual life at this point in my life. As a wife and a mom I find myself struggling to find time to be quiet, by myself, let alone quiet time to read and think about the truths of the Bible. I remember after getting married I had to shift expectations of what my Christian walk would look like. As individual as it had been before it now included someone else. And likewise with the addition of each of our boys my time has been whittled down and what I am left with is often feels like a washed out version of what I previously clung to.  In the midst of the hustle and bustle I am saying a prayer here and jotting down a verse there.  I am sneaking moments when the house is quiet to read books and trying to equip myself for guiding our children in their faith. I find I have to create a new normal. I can’t be frustrated that I don’t have the time I had before. I need to embrace the new phase.   I want to be aware of God’s presence in our lives and I want to know the peace and patience that only He can bring.

I am thinking next time I will work harder to memorize! That way when the waters come I can remember the promises!

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